Back in August of 2014 I was downsized. I had left a job I worked at for almost 9 years to work for a company I was told was fabulous to work for and that it was going places. Yes it went places…but not in the direction I had hoped. So now I have been forced back into the job market at the age of 57. I could say that would be a good thing because maybe now I can find the job of my dreams and finally do what I have always wanted to do…But that wouldn’t be true…I havent a clue what I want to do.
Looking for work at this age has been daunting, to say the least. So many web sites …so many ways to get yourself noticed. I could say that my job hunting has been effective and successful. But that wouldn’t be true, While I have had a few interviews, I am apparently too qualified, too unqualified or just not what they are looking for. All this after completing several rounds of interviews and assessment tests. I know what is true,,,I am 57.
I could say I am job hunting all day so I can’t possibly take the time to clean or do laundry or clean litter boxes etc. but then that wouldn’t be true either. I’d like to say that I had hoped that during this time off I would have taken this opportunity to clean and organize my house…especially my kitchen and back rooms. That I would finally clear up the small bedroom and make it into my office again and that my office was turned back into the guest room it used to be…I would love to say that was the case….but 5 months later..I have barely managed to clean out my office and clean the kitchen. I do manage to get the garbage out on Thursdays and manage to clean the litter boxes most of the time, I even manage to shower …what..the animals don’t care. I hear my mom in my head saying..take a shower get dressed and go find a job.
Mom always said..wait till you have your own house…you will learn to keep it because its yours. Wish I could say that was true. Sorry mom..once a messy girl …always a messy girl. I could blame a dog and 3 cats..but that wouldn’t be fair to the animals because they can only mess up where they can go…I am to blame…completely and utterly to blame.
What I have learned these past few months is that losing your job is very isolating at this age. Most of my friends work or live to far away stop by for a cup of coffee and some encouragement. TV during the day sucks…Since I am job hunting I wont indulge streaming while looking for a job. I have learned that the wind in my sail is depends on the weather outside. If the sun is out I seem to be more energized than when it is dreary…much like today.
I’d like to say that I took this time to work on recipes and started to put together a cookbook. I would like to say that I found a business partner and am finally able to start that business I still dream of starting, But that wouldnt be true. All are still dreams and wishes and someday will happen.
I have however, started this blog, worked on a website, looked for new courses to amp up my resume, bought a new computer and telephone, so that I can find temporary work , working remotely. All this time has not been wasted. Duncan Dog ( my rescue from Nov 2013) and I have gotten to know each other better . He has learned how to get along better with me and the cats..while still a work in progress I have hopes….paw steps…
What is true..what i do know…is that I have hope. I wake up every morning eternally hopeful that this will be the day! The day for cleaning, for a job and for whatever else I want, I just have to start the day hopeful.