Job hunting, a messy house and 4 animals…there is hope

Back in August of 2014 I was downsized.  I had left a job I worked at for almost 9 years to work for a company I was told was fabulous to work for and that it was going places.  Yes it went places…but not in the direction I had hoped.  So now I have been forced back into the job market at the age of 57. I could say that would be a good thing because maybe now I can find the job of my dreams and finally do what I have always wanted to do…But that wouldn’t be true…I havent a clue what I want to do.

Looking for work at this age has been daunting,  to say the least. So many web sites …so many ways to get yourself noticed. I could say that my  job hunting has been effective and successful.   But that wouldn’t be true,  While I have had a few interviews,  I am apparently too qualified, too unqualified or just not what they are looking for.  All this after completing several rounds of interviews and assessment tests.  I know what is true,,,I am 57.

I could say I am job hunting all day so I can’t possibly take the time to clean or do laundry or clean litter boxes etc.  but then that wouldn’t be true either.  I’d like to say that I had hoped that during this time off I would have taken this opportunity to clean and organize my house…especially my kitchen and back rooms. That I would finally clear up the small bedroom and make it into my office again and that my office was turned back into the guest room it used to be…I would love to say that was the case….but 5 months later..I have barely managed to clean out my office and clean the kitchen. I do manage to get the garbage out on Thursdays and manage to clean the litter boxes most of the time,  I even manage to shower …what..the animals don’t care.  I hear my mom in my head saying..take a shower get dressed and go find a job.

Mom always said..wait till you have your own house…you will learn to keep it because its yours.  Wish I could say that was true.  Sorry mom..once a messy girl …always a messy girl.  I could blame a dog and 3 cats..but that wouldn’t be fair to the animals because they can only mess up where they can go…I am to blame…completely and utterly to blame.

What I have learned these past few months is that losing your job is very isolating at this age.  Most of my friends work or live to far away stop by for a cup of coffee and some encouragement. TV during the day sucks…Since I am job hunting I wont indulge streaming while looking for a job. I have learned that the wind in my sail is depends on the weather outside.  If the sun is out I seem to be more energized than when it is dreary…much like today.

I’d like to say that I took this time to work on recipes and started to put together a cookbook. I would like to say that I found a business partner and am finally able to start that business I still dream of starting,  But that wouldnt be true. All are still dreams and wishes and someday will happen.

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I have however, started this blog, worked on a website, looked for new courses to amp up my resume, bought a new computer and telephone, so that I can find temporary work , working remotely.  All this time has not been wasted. Duncan Dog ( my rescue from Nov 2013)  and I have gotten to know each other better .  He has learned how to get along better with me and the cats..while still a work in progress I have hopes….paw steps…

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What is true..what i do know…is that I have hope.  I wake up every morning eternally hopeful that this will be the day! The day for cleaning, for a job and for whatever else I want, I just have to start the day hopeful.

8 thoughts on “Job hunting, a messy house and 4 animals…there is hope

  1. Many women will connect with you on this. But just remember – you will progress – after having had cancer and having come out of it (it took a long time) I can tell you this from experience. And while recovering from cancer and losing a job or losing a job and recovering from cancer are not the same, both are temporary derailments. Overwhelming derailments. But when the time is right, they will be shown to have been a preparation of some sort. I always believe that these things happen because there are better things down the road for us. I really believe this and I have experienced it.
    The job will come. Even if you have to invent it. And the house will get cleaned…yours and everyone of your new followers!!

  2. Amy, I am glad you have hope, but I do hear how difficult this phase of your life is. I think it is a good idea to get any kind of temp job you can, just to get up, dressed and out of the house for a couple of hours a day. When overwhelmed, which is often, I start small, one step at a time, just clean up a small portion of a room-like a shelf. If you do a little each day I think you will see improvement. Depression saps the energy out of you so it is so difficult to do the things that will make you feel better – try exercise (only 15 minutes a day). You need a schedule, even with little bits of activity and big rests in between. Can you live on a low paying job? If yes, maybe you should try something related to cooking or reading…a bakery, caterer, bookstore, the Clinique counter! Sorry for the rambling. I need to take some of my own advice. I hope you feel better soon. I look forward to seeing you in August.

  3. Hope is a good thing Amy. I can so relate to everything you’re saying. And even though I finally (after 3 years!) found a job, I don’t take it for granted. It can end as easily as it started. That’s kind of scary. But forge ahead! What else can we do right?

  4. You know that I always have great faith in you. The ideal fit for that job will come your way. You simply have to believe in it. Remember? “If at first you don’t succeed…try, try again.” You are my hero in a way, because you were able to make a new life for yourself. You packed up, moved miles & miles away & kept on re-inventing yourself without apologies. For that alone…I adore you. Thank you for teaching me that lesson so I would be able to hopefully, one day be able to do the same. Keep on going Amy. I’m rooting for you.

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